the near future is looking to be quite nice

today, i bought two little wish bracelets from a street vendor near the canal.  you're supposed to tie the bracelet on with 3 knots and make a wish with each knot -- the bracelet has a base color and each color stands for something different, love, hope, friendship, career, etc.  your wish should probably correspond to the base color of the bracelet.   when the bracelet falls off, your wish is supposed to come true -- you've heard of these.  well, i tied them on and after an hour or two, i hadn't come up with wishes yet.  even after seriously focusing, i still could not come up with something to wish for.  at first, i was frustrated that i couldn't decide upon something specific but really, nothing to wish for? things must be going okay!  i mean, in all seriousness, what could i have to complain about? i do have a gazillion things to be doing in preparation for the end of the school year, moving out of my apartment, and saying goodbye to those who have been my family for the past 10 months but at the same time, i have so many good things happening.  tonight i ate homemade spaghetti carbonara that was just "thrown together" by V, i only have a week of school left until summer, i'm rendezvousing with two of my best friends in prague in 9 days and i've got about 6 other trips in the works.  life is good.

in the past few months, as my friends and i have all been job searching, trying to decide what to do when we leave trieste, i've had a lot of conversations (and time to think) about plans for next year and weighing the options.  stay abroad? return to the states? keep teaching? go another route? if stay abroad, where to go? if return to the states, where to go?  as you may or may not know, i've decided to focus on traveling next year (unless some incredible opportunity for employment comes along and knocks me off of my feet), within the US and abroad.  i've got people in cool places that i need to visit and i was so indecisive for so long about where i wanted to go and be for an extended period of time that it just seemed like the right decision for me.  hopefully, living the life of a perma-gallivanter, i can continue to work out what i want to do more long-term.  but for now, i could not be happier with my decision to not really have a plan (who am i?!).  

i wasn't always happy with my lack-of-"real"-job for the fall and i couldn't have reached this point of content without really hashing out the pros and cons with everyone around me.  in tuck everlasting, one of my favorite books and the novel we are finishing the year with in class, one of the characters says, "people got to do something useful if they're going to take up space in the world." and i could not agree more.  however, what i want to do is travel the world and tell people about it - inspire them to "step outside and see what's shaking in the real world" (as a friend of mine says).  is this desire a desire to do something, or would the end result just be bragging?

a common question that many people ask (and must answer) is, "what do you do?"  as a favorite redhead family member says on her design blog, sweetboo, it's becoming more difficult to succinctly define "what you do" in today's world.  i could not agree more.  when people ask me, "so what are you going to do in the fall?" i know that they mean, "do you have a job, or what's the deal?"  and no, while i don't have a full-time teaching job lined up, that doesn't mean i'm not going to be doing anything.  in fact, i'm going to be doing a lot of things!  these things might not be traditional employment options, but i'm planning to broaden my horizons through travel, fund those travels along the way,  and learn a lot -- not everyone can say that about their day jobs, am i right?!      

maybe i'm wrong.  so, should i be searching for a more "normal" immediate future?  a friend, M, is having a hard time deciding what to do next - she's deciding between traveling the world and having a job that will look good on her resume, a "normal, professional" job.  but what is normal?!  there really is no "normal" anymore, people in this world are all over the place and you can't compare yourself to others -- you must do what is right for you in the moment.  following your own head is how you will make it to where you're supposed to be -- how you'll find your "normal."  thankfully, the more i talk to people, the more i'm noticing that everyone is growing more conscious of this which makes it easier to do what you want.  who cares what is considered normal?  

now, i don't know what all the answers are (are you surprised?), everyone has to figure out what is right for them.  i do know that we shouldn't dwell on things for too long, stress should be avoided like the plague and we mustn't forget to have fun.  as dr. seuss says,  life's a great balancing act...but there's fun to be done!

so, as i said in the beginning, i've got a lot going on but no complaints, life is good.

x!